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5/28/2007
noone but me from URL @ 12:58 AM Shaken, not stirred;  What your mind can conceive and believe, it can achieve. I haven't done my planner. Tomorrow im going to cut my hair, go shopping with my mom and then watch POTC with mom and bro. & today was an important day somehow, cos a certain someone talked me to maturity. It certainly helped me see light and made me feel a LOT better. Thank You; through and through. and here i must thank Rupini too. She is God's blessing to me. THANK YOU SO MUCH!  Loves. (And i don't feel the need to elaborate, so that's that.) Well, today at church i saw my pleasant looking stranger; "thats nice!' Then i bumped into him again at Simei;"woahh okay." And again at ECP. " OMG!" And on my way home i was wondering if some things are merely coincidental. Two years ago i'd have snapped back cos i was an avid believe of fate; i still am, but lets say not that eager anymore. Just yesterday and today i was thinking about something that was important to me, and i think its God's way of reaching out to me but today at Mass the answer dawned on me. I was truely touched i teared. but of course that was hastily wiped away cos my dad was there; ah well. random: The part Cs are in Thailand.  thats US anyway. And nowadays everyone's in a nostalgic mood. Every conversation i have ends up with myself and the other person reminiscing and then hastily chiding the other to shut up. Truth be told, im not able to see life without my platoonmates, classmates & significant friends. But then again, in the past too i couldn't see to today; and yet here i am reliquishing the moment. And times like these i feel like slapping myself and saying move on, dang. random: It was V.S. Priya's bday yest. HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN SURIA! :D she was born at 6.29 pm.  This seems like a pretty indifferent entry. Well, its not like i don't have a purpose in life. I know what i want for my Os; and i think for all that matters, thats all i need to know; for now.  5/21/2007 noone but me from URL @ 12:14 AM SLAP IN THE FACE- WAKE UP SARAH. if this is what insecurity feels like; cos i miss everything and everyone there's to miss. 5/18/2007 noone but me from URL @ 11:06 PM Okay i think i had said in my previous post that I'd be updating regularly? Well, now im tellling you thats crap :D Im gna stay away from this computer as much as possible, using it only once a week, and hopefully i'll be in the mood to update then. Anyway, the MYE results are out. Well, Im disappointed in myself, as are the many other people in themselves, not forgetting the teachers. I know what it feels like to be disappointed in someone/ppl ): It sucks. The most disappointing were English, Physics & Literature ): but well, im not about to sob and moan and groan, but IM GNA MUG! (i don't know why a mug, but if thats what its gna take, im gna do it) & thats enough about the Exams. Random thoughts have been occuring a lot this past week. Im not too sure why but i think its because my brain isn't constantly flooded with SS or Physics or anything now. I think the one that recurred the most was this; Its painful being with someone whom with you could talk to about anything and everything, until you drifted away from him/her and things that were once said remain unsaid. Conversations that used to come with ease become strained, and comforts with that particular become awkward. Its heartwrenching just being spectator to the evident destruction of a friendship that meant hell a lot. And then when its over, human as we are, we just wonder why didn't we do something about it. The silly mistake we make time and time again. Plus it gets worse when you're all upset over it and the other party doesn't seem to care; ouch. But all of us are good with our masks i think; i think we're all just fragile beneath. Cos For all i know this other person might just be caring as much as me; for all i know. but maybe i know otherwise and its gnawing at my heart; empty spaces- i wonder who took my place in yrs. when everything else falls apart, smile :D this has more to it than anyone'll ever realise. random: I think i really want to go into psychology. random2: I found someone's blog! i screamed so loud on the inside i almost went deaf! And as we push and we shove and we hurt the ones we love, It's a hard mistake. 5/09/2007 noone but me from URL @ 11:25 PM Well, like everyone else is saying " The MYEs are over!" Its like the first tiny lap compared to the next two major ones, but i'm just glad that we're getting through it. My MYEs were really pretty screwed. Eng- Wrote out of point for my compo & oral was wayyyy offf ( i said the people were doing something interesting in trying to conserve the environment. They were fishing from a box. I don't know what else i could've said that's stupid-er.) Emaths- I kinda gave up? i knocked out at 9+ and woke up at 5 without studying. My mom said i yelled at her cos she told me to sleep by 11 and i yelled at her calling her crazy and went to sleep on the sofa immediately =/ Amaths- Damn, i was disappointed. Stupid Integrations, the only thing i didn't practice came out in abundance. Tamil- HAHA Chem- I stayed up till 3.30 and i actually finished studying. T'was a SH*T paper. SS- Something i thought went fine, but i wrote a bit out of point. Geog- This too i actually completed studying by 3+ and danngg. I couldn't finish the paper on time. Lit- A paper that i think i can do decently well. Well, i hope. [There were 2 minutes left to the ending of the paper. I was just about to end my analysis for the last part of the poem so i raised my hand for paper. The teacher ah, BEST. Walked all the way from the front to the back, where i was & asked me " yes?" DANG I COULD HAVE SHOT HER. i was like "paper?" and she "oh" and turned to walk all the way back. I was feeling super exasperated. Nish chucked over a piece of paper to me but my thoughts were interrupted & i couldn't remember what i wanted to say! So i scribbled sth down and Mrs Foo said pens down. Then, even BEST-er, the teacher comes now and gives me paper. WTH.] Phy- I think this was the most disappointing. I just couldn't do the paper. I blanked out quite a lot and couldn't do the simplest questions. & this was something that i fully studied and prepared myself for. To think Mr Goh went through similar questions only makes it all the more worse. & i remember during the days before the MYEs, he would always ask sth and all of us would be like "huhh". He would look so shocked and be like "how can you all not know!" I just feel like his efforts wre all in vain; for me. I feel like i've let him down the most, more than for any other subject/teacher. Its worse when someone else is disappointed in you, than you yourself ): Especially when that someone's put in a commendable amount of effort. ahh well. MYEs. I'm not anticipating Friday, in fact i just hold some sort of dread in my heart; ON A BRIGHTER NOTE! My dear platoonmates & classmates gave me a surprise bday celebration! kathleen was telling me a joke when i was having lunch so i was facing the other way, then suddenly from behind, a loud chorus of "happy bday" erupted. HAHA. I was REALLY surprised. They all say i was so blur for not having noticed, but KATHLEEN WAS TELLING ME A JOKE FACING THE OTHER DIRECTION LAHH. Haha, they made me do ballooon episodes. Sit on a balloon till it burst/blow a balloon till it bursts, then they nicely deco-ed me in party pooper stuffs haha. It was a pleasant surprise (: i even had a cake! (: YAY! :D THANK YOU A LOTLOTLOT! And my actual bday was really shitty. To cut a long story short, My mom was trying to evict our CRAZY korean tenant but she refused to leave. On saturday she spat, cursed, yelled, kicked the police until she was forced out of the house and jailed. The CRAZY woman was released and came back again =/ so on sunday my mom called the cops again at around 10+. But there was a point of time she went out and my mom locked the place up. And the CRAZY woman actually KICKED MY BALCONY DOOR DOWN. like wthhhh. CRAZYY. i came home from church, lunch and some army exhibition at 2+ & the police said i couldn't stay at home. so i got my stuffs and went to the airport to study with my bro. At 6+ my mom called and asked me to come home cos she wanted to spend my bday with me. HA. HA. The CRAZY tenant picked that time to go CRAZY again. & this time was worse, we were locked out of the house. so my brother and i were outside the house for 3hours ++ till she was arrested. again. CRAZY OKAY. and she cursed us all in korean; damn. haha, my interesting sweet sixteen. i shall upload the video sometime soon. Oh yeah, on Saturday my brother and i had some good Korean drama mann, haha. and i cant remember many other things that happened though. Oh, my neighbour (he's 6 i think) & his mom decided to bake me a bday cake. I was quite surprised and due to the lack of food at home yest, i ate quite a bit of cake last night. And at around 3 am i started vomitting; it was horrid =/ woke up at 530, showered and i felt so giddy i just sauntered back to my room in the towel and fell asleep haha. But my poor neighbours have got mild stomach flu or smth. I think they're saying there's something wrong with the milk they used =/ Well yeap, i've got a lot of thoughts to pen down actually, but i think i'll be updating this blog quite a bit for some time. so, for now, its just my life; good morning. cos the words that mean the most are the hardest to say.
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